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This is it.

Sat, 12 Sep 2009 22:40:16 GMT

You were my last remaining link to this place..

I hardly even recognize it anymore.

What are you?

Thu, 13 Aug 2009 21:26:06 GMT

Well the tongue inside my mouth is not for sale,
Any spirit left in me is fading fast
Could you throw another stone to ease my pain?
Could you throw another stone to seal my fate?
'Cause I didn't believe in this world anymore, anymore
I don't believe in me

And if I can rise above this I'll be saved,
Can anybody save me?
And if I can die for love, then I'm enslaved,
Can anybody save me?

Second chances are too few and far between
Will to change this circumstance eludes me still
Should I grow another shell in which to live?
Should I grow another shell and not forgive?
'Cause I don't believe in this world anymore, anymore
I don't believe in me.

Friday, July 24, 2009

Fri, 24 Jul 2009 17:18:56 GMT

Fuck YOU.

For You, My Dear, My Love...

Sun, 15 Mar 2009 04:00:40 GMT

Will never leave..

What would I do without you? What what I do if you died tomorrow? I hope I never have to find out.

I believe I'm falling for you. The Rose Captain knows my name.

So it goes...

Mon, 26 Jan 2009 04:25:19 GMT

Seasons come and go. Yet I'm still here. But I s'pose I wont be for too much longer now, eh?

I don't know if I really want to leave though. Maybe I'll have my damn mind made up by then. Who knows. Will leaving this place mean leaving you forever? Will I know you anymore, my blue-eyed girl?

Will you know me anymore? I guess that's the real question.

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There's some people that I just... utterly dislike. Hate? I dunno, hate's an awful strong word. I think I only hate a few people in this life. But again, I can't be too sure on all of that. I can't be too sure on anything anymore. Nothing, and I mean nothing, is as it seems anymore. Just a thought, nothing more. I saw something that made me think of all that a few minutes ago.

I'm in a blah kind of mood.. not happy, but not exactly upset either. I lie somewhere in between. Seriously, I could give two shits right now about what I've got to do this week and this coming month. This long ass road I've been on is nearing it's end. The finality of it all is rather scary, but what of it when it comes? I'll have to wait and see.

I always hated writing. Or typing, whatever way you look at it. I can never really and truly get down what I'm feeling. Just comes out kind of crazy like, if you know what I mean. Whoever "you" are. I say that lightly, because I think I could just be typing this out to try and put my emotions that are far too complex for words into just that: words. And words are nothing, right? Right.

So it goes, my friend. So it goes.

So tell me,

Thu, 06 Nov 2008 03:09:24 GMT

Why wasn't it me?
Why did it have to happen to you?
You could do so much more.. but now you're in a bed, and we'll never know if you'll wake up.
Maybe you're dreaming. Maybe you're happy.
But I know you, and I know you can do greater things; things that I'll never achieve.
Fuck it all-- this world, this life, this fire I have burning in my heart, this ice that freezes my soul.
Nothing is what it seems. Just like a dream. If it's a dream though, I should be able to change things, to fix them.
But I can't. And that's that.

Amen for a good stiff drink.

One day buddy, you're gonna wake up. You're gonna wake up and it's not going to hurt so damn bad anymore. I can tell you anything in the world, and it'll be the truest thing you ever heard. But you wont know it until you discover it for yourself. You've got to find out for yourself, alone.

So it goes,
So it goes,
So it goes.

Monday, November 03, 2008

Mon, 03 Nov 2008 03:29:31 GMT

Hallelujah for sleeping pills
And amen for a good stiff drink
You know that I can't sleep
So why I should I try
It's been this way for years
You think by know I'd know why

Hallelujah for long shot dreams

And amen for our perfect life
You know that I can't win
So why I should I try
It's been this way for years
You think by know I'd know why

I so I drove by your home
To drop off a simple note
Saying if it's not too late
Can I call you up after your date

"It's Not A Fashion Statement, It's A Deathwish"

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 03:06:27 GMT

For what you did to me,
And what I'll do to you,
You get, what everyone else gets,
You get a lifetime

Do you remember that day when we met
You told me this gets harder
Well it did
Been holding on forever,
Promise me that when I'm gone you'll kill my enemies,
The damage you've inflicted, temporary wounds
I'm coming back from the dead and I'll take you home with me
I'm taking back the life you stole

We never got that far,
This helps me to think all through the night
Bright lights that won't kill me now, or tell me how
Just you and I, your starless eyes remain

You talk to me, but would you kill me in my sleep
Lay still like the dead,
From the razor to the rosary
We could lose ourselves,
And paint these walls in pitchfork red

I will avenge my ghost with every breath I take
I'm coming back from the dead and I'll take you home with me
I'm taking back the life you stole

This hole you put me in
Wasn't deep enough
And I'm climbing out right now
You're running out of places to hide from me
When you go,
Just know that I will remember you
If living was the hardest part,
We'll then one day be together
And in the end we'll fall apart
Just like the leaves change in colors
And then I will be with you
I will be there one last time now

When you go,
Just know that I will remember you

I lost my fear of falling.

PS- Fuck you over thrice, all of you, and the god damned world.

WRESTLERS

Fri, 12 Sep 2008 02:42:26 GMT

It's me versus you and love, it's me versus you and love
It's me versus you and love, it's me versus you and love
It's me versus you and love, we'll tag team, double up
Hit you in the sweet-spot and make you wish you buffed up

The gloves off
The gloves off

It's me and Phil messin' around
Taken us a man down
But while you got us on the ropes
We plan to play the mess around

He's technically trained
You've got him buckled up and he will misbehave
You weigh big at the trained
But I've got the power and the glory in my body brains

The gloves off
The gloves off

So why you gonna have to fight dirty
Don't fight dirty, don't hit me with the chair
The gloves off
So why you gonna have to fight dirty
Don't fight dirty, don't bang me in the face
The gloves off

Now what you gonna do when I come for you with all that I've got
I've got a roll of points I'm aiming for your lines and I will never stop

I learned all I know from watching the wrestling
I think you think I'm about to throw the towel in

Here comes Four Jack, watch your back, watch your back
He'll charm you with the double axe and then he brings the tire tax
He's not dressed for a cage
He's rodent gum and strictly for another age
Here we come, drop kick, half nelson, full nelson, Willy Nelson
Willy Nelson

It's me versus, me versus, me versus, me versus you..

I learned all I know from watching the wrestling

I think you think I'm about to throw the towel in
Everyone one knows Monday night he's wrestling

Fuck it,

Tue, 12 Aug 2008 04:44:34 GMT

You know? Just.. fuck it. Harsh, crude, obnoxious-- whatever the case may be, that's it. This is it. That's all I can say about this place I'm in. And I mean physically.

I hate this place. My friend and my new job seem like my only refuge. I think I hate/resent my peers. I don't fit in, and I don't ever want to. They're fools. I've accepted this to be the truth for sometime now, maybe not consciously though. Maybe it's caused by the way things used to be. I can't help that. There's only one person I truly hate now; with others, I s'pose it's an intense dislike or something like that. I just.. don't like most people.

But I always want to help, even if some people don't seem like they're not worth helping. Maybe with help, they'll improve. Maybe just give them time to mature. Or both. I'll do anything I can, I hope.

Fuck, I'm babbling.